Dreams

It's a funny, terrifying experience to ink out goals and dreams. As if once expressed, failure is possible. I'm really good at keeping low expectations, and am always prepared to learn and accept "reality".

But life is happening now. And God gave us free will. And i'm realizing I am capable of much more than i've allowed myself. So I need to put those dreams and hopes out there. I need to believe that it's okay to have the things you desire, so long as they do not own you.

So here are my dreams and goals:

Save money for Sean to get his Master's Degree in Art History, that he will be able to work in the industry.

Become a C.P.A., work independently, part time, and from home. Maybe full time during tax season.

Get our butts on a few planes and Travel to...Provence, the French Riviera, Scotland, Southern Spain, Hawaii, Turkey, Venice, Morocco, and Greece.

Live in a small brick house, with a fireplace, a vegetable garden, trees, a kitchen island, a real mailbox, a BIG bathtub, hardwood floors, and lots of windows.

Be able to spend time with people and develop relationships.

Write Nana's and my Dad's life story, or maybe somehow both combined. Also, my Mom's, who is truly remarkable, I am learning as I get older.

****Sidenote: Sean and I were morbidly talking about death and what we would want the other person to do if we died. I said I would be happy for him to ride his motorcycle around the world and to live in France for a little while. And he wanted me to write. Hence, the increase in blogging and journaling on the train. I love to write, not as a means to be famous, acknowledged, or to be "a writer", (though admittedly, I will always remember when my favorite teacher Ms. Sparks/Mrs. Shaw in highschool wrote on one of my Essays, "Sharon, you are a writer" ), but really to affirm my existence. All this to say, i'd like writing to be a bigger part of my life, and it's a skill i'd like to improve.

-Make an effort to find new friends and become more vulnerable to old friends.

-Learn to play the piano (which Sean is currently doing, so beautiful!).

-Grow more as a Christian, learn to worry less, give more, sacrifice, find peace, and be content to put others before me.

Methinks that is enough for the time being!