stumbled upon my childlike-ness today. sat in sadness as random days of the past year flipped before my eyes like a depressing comic strip. so many criticizing words. too many sighs and not enough giggling without reason. surprised that my eyes haven't been stuck in the back of my head after all of the rolling they've been doing. i don't know where or when i lost her. but i turned around today in shock to find that the little girl who carried so much joy and wonder for so many years left me. realizing this, a deep feeling of sorrow drenched my heart. In my regret, i heard her whisper, i heard her say. "it's not too late, you may have gotten caught up in this world you're living in and forgotten what you were hear for, but it was only for a little while. maybe you lost me, but look, listen, you hear me again." And the smile that used to spread across my face so easily has been wider than ever today. It's not too late. So i screwed up and lost sight of all it is i believe life to be about, but my heart is back, it's beating normally and there goes my unbelief. And so here i sit, reunited with the girl of my past, taking pleasure in blue twinkle lights, baked potatoes, bluegrass music, dancing off beat, pretending i can sing, and laughing for absolutely no reason at all.